Hello my sweet friends. I need your prayers!!
I have always handled our finances. We have been married for 20 years and this has always been my job. Money..or the lack there of has always stressed Eric out...so I took that job. I do not have regret about doing the finances but I will tell you that I fed a beast! I knew that Eric would get frustrated easily and I would rob peter to pay paul many times over the years. Eric knew that we were tight and he is NOT a spender nor am I but when something would come up..like a car repair..instead of telling him that we didn't have the money and letting him... as God appointed head of our home..figure it out..I would come up with all kinds of creative ways to make iy work. I have even sold things that were precious to me just to get extra money. This was soooo wrong of me....I wanted to protect him but that was not my job!!!
About 4 years ago we had a "come to Jesus meeting"...if don't know that term it means I showed up in his office one day and had a breakdown...apologized for taking on the role of protector and then laid it all out on the table. He was great and we decided that I would still handle the books but that he would make all the decisions and he would figure out how to get "extra" money for things that came up.
Well wouldn't you know it...we started DTEM 3 years ago...we couldn't even pay our bills much less hire a secretary so guess who has handled the finances...ME! Eric has been involved all the way but it is me who looks at it EVERY DAY for the past 3 years. I went to Eric 3 months ago and said, "I can't do this anymore. I am so weary about worrying over money. I will handle personal money but you have to take DTEM books....just pay us and if you can't pay us then you tell me what to do."
He gladly took it and I am in the process of teaching him. Which means that I still have to look at it everyday!! Well as of next week we will have to go to half pay. I can't even express to you how heavy this is for me....it is so hard to enjoy ministry when you always have to cut every corner! I hate money! I hate that I allow the enemy to steal my joy. Please pray for me!!! Please pray for Eric....he has never had to handle this stuff before! Please pray that the Lord would give us understanding....he has placed so many dreams to reach the lost here and all over the world but the bottom line is that it takes money for this to happen! I love you guys so much! Thanks for praying on our behalf!
Friday, June 11, 2010
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I am so sorry - and can totally relate - as we are living on half of what we used to make too... but I know that you know that God IS faithful and that He WILL supply ALL of your needs!!! He owns the ministry and will supply for it too...and in the process, He will glorify Himself through your lives as He takes care of you all...
with love and prayers for your encouragement and peace today~
Jennifer
Thank ya'll so much..I have received so many emails and words of encouragement. I was telling one of my friends that one of the most frustrating things about our situation is that....if we were not in ministry...the answer would be..work harder. Eric is an amazingly hard worker! He would work as many jobs as needed to pay the bills. Now the amount of work doesn't earn him money?! He is cutting a few lawns to earn a little extra but every little job takes away from ministry work. He has more ministry work than he can handle.
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